[Thought from last night: I have no recollection of ever having experienced "calm". The best I can manage is "drugged" or "exhausted". I do have a strong memory of beating my head against a wall as a very young child in an attempt to stop racing, compulsive thoughts ( Read more... )

good:

• went to another excellent (and less punishingly alcoholic) party last night, met lots of interesting people, was Admired and informed of own Brilliance, met small gay dogs
• am not hungover
• have hit my nano target today

bad:

• too late to buy interesting foods from posh farm people
• winter makes me crazy

NaNoWriMoing update: nothing prepares you better for sitting in the freezing cold angrily bashing out words and poking your head around a carrel to glare at people if they so much as breathe loudly as walking two miles in the freezing cold angrily working out what you're going to write and then being annoyed that you're not actually there yet to ( Read more... )

Sewing. Went into Central London, bought Christmas presents for TWO people and am now staring at my bank account with a horrified feeling. I do however have some banging fucking bloomers in which I look rad as shit. One of the characters for the next project - Aaron Kirke - has developed the most beautifully clear character voice, down to accent ( Read more... )

Today I went for a nice walk with Holly from South Kensington to the NFT/BFI Southbank. I elaborated on my "only men broken by institutions" theory and realised I probably need to buckle down and shag Tory politicians even if the idea puts my socialist ideals into revolt.

Then I watched Blue Velvet with my dear boyfriend, which was more coherent ( Read more... )